Hey buddy... I don't know what you are going through but I am sure it will pass! Sometimes all you need to do is soldier on and not let things get to you. There is a lot to live for and although things might get tough from time to time but you will look back at this chapter in your life a couple of years from now and it will all seem much smaller than it is now. You might need to talk to someone, maybe a professional who can help you get past this. @Dr. Samawi is a great guy, I suggest you see him before you do anything that might hurt people who love and care about you.